Be Aware of the Urban Monk

The urban monk sees himself working on his personal evolution through his daily practice. He sees himself caring for his body temple by carefully picking out his daily food. He sees himself attending workshops and seminars to learn how to live an ethical and purposeful life. He sees himself dutifully studying books and attending lectures that help him elevate his spirit. And he sees himself devotedly offering prayers and gratitude to his chosen form of divinity.

 

Commendable as it looks from the outside, we need to pay close attention to this urban monk since, in his zealous quest to reach the ultimate goal, s/he may unconsciously be following a self-centered path that does ultimately drive him/her to isolation and depression. In this type of spiritual delusion, the urban monk may exclusively enjoy conversations on spiritual matters, avoid most social events, despise former hobbies, and, to a certain extent, see himself as superior on his chosen way of living life. The urban monk works and lives for his spiritual path, thinking that his personal spiritual evolution is all that matters and the only path to true realization.

 

However, the urban monk needs to understand that this path is the path of the mountain yogi, the renunciate, the wandering mendicant, and not the path of someone still being part of society. If the urban monk is still living in society, it means that his path is still here and needs to be adjusted to the demands of living in society. How does the urban monk understand all this? It may take years of hardships and suffering and denial. Pain is the ultimate teacher when everything else has failed.

 

A gentler and wiser approach is to start paying attention to the breath, slowly training the mind to focus and refocus on its harmonious rhythm. We follow it as pelicans follow their leader on their beautiful flying formations. One day, the breath gently invites us to notice our senses and later on to notice our emotions, and finally to notice how we interact with the world around us.

 

And it is then, and only then, that the urban monk will able to understand that all those years he had spent working on his personal evolution through daily practices and workshops and prayer and study and meditation had kept him blind from what was really being requested from him. And it is then that he will be able to finally see himself intentionally listening when his attention is needed; and he will see himself uninterestedly helping when his assistance is needed; and he will see himself preaching only when his counsel is needed; and he will see himself observing his emotions before he instinctively jumps into fear, anger or judgement. He will see the world around him as the divine coliseum where the game of his own evolution is being played.

 

And he will finally understand. He will understand that all those years of focusing on his personal growth have led him into a state of isolation, a most peculiar form of egotism where his quest for enlightenment or happiness had blinded him from the needs of any other creature beyond himself. And he will understand that, even though he was always preaching about the world being ONE, he was continually failing at the opportunity of placing the needs of others before his own needs. He will understand that too much “personal training” leads to separation whereas too much mindfulness on daily affairs leads to communion.

 

And then he will focus on mindfully observing every situation he faces in life. It is only there that he can put his training to work. He will still “train” whenever he can; when he has the time; when his mindful observation advises. Training will still be there but it won’t occupy the core of his being anymore. It will be replaced by involvement in the details and messages of life and the creatures that play a role in the game of life. He will no longer be lost in the technique, in himself. Things will finally start to make sense and then he will be able to understand that growth comes only from playing in front of an audience, not from eternally rehearsing in front of a mirror.

 

LIFE HAPPENS…HAPPEN WITH LIFE!

The ONE

I heard that you were everywhere but I couldn’t even see you in front of my eyes. I heard that you were all powerful but I couldn’t understand how. I heard that you have always existed but I wasn’t there to witness it. I heard that you knew everything but I could never take a class from you.

 

Being so indoctrinated, I have always seen you as a separate reality. I heard them talk about all being ONE but, even though I wanted to believe it, I was never able to envision it. To me, you were always outside, above, beyond that ONENESS. Above everything, ruling, overseeing, witnessing, creating lives upon lives, worlds upon worlds…but not here, not actively participating, not de facto involved in my daily meaningless tasks that feel so meaningful to me. How can you know what I feel being human even if you know everything? Can you “know” my feelings, emotions, and states of mind as I experience them personally? Isn’t that more of an experience than a knowing? If we agree that emotions are universal archetypes and feelings my very own personal reaction to them, how can you partake of my human experience if you are separate from me? But you are not. Because you cannot be.

 

Because I am not. Because you are.

 

And now I know that I am you and you are me. Not that you are in me for that would imply a separation; you are me and I am you. And now, I can understand when I hear that you are omnipresent, eternal, omnipotent, and omniscient. Because I am too, as long as I agree to transcend this burning curiosity that is such a big part of my present human condition.

 

Then I am